Monday, January 21, 2013


my life has not been perfect, easy or ideal... at times
teen pregnancy
juvenile delinquency
drug abuse
loss of my young nephew in a car accident 
major life dibilitating stroke for my dad at age 56
12 year prison sentence for my brother
my brother being shot and paralyzed 

yup i've seen it all
been around it all
experienced hurt, witnessed great suffering

but through it all
 i still have faith
 in god's plans
i am blessed to know i have eternal life in heaven to look forward too
a day when none of this hurt or suffering or grief will matter anymore

praise GOD

and even though life hasn't always been easy
i still have MUCH to be thankful for
don't we all

i remember my days in africa last summer
i would say out loud over and over "we have so much"
they have nothing
i am blessed to be an american
i am blessed to have a beautiful family to love and care for
a roof over our head and a means to feed our big family of 4+ 2 dogs + 1 guinea pig
abundance, favor
we have it

we have a church family that is a dream come true
 total GOD thing
and i have a wonderful group of christian girlfriends who are the funnest people i know
these girls are so great
and their husbands are equally amazing and all friends with adam
like family friends

i have the privilege to work now while the boys are in school
and another blessing came in to our life when we found our adorable nanny, Celina
she cares for the boys and pets 3.5 hours a day
in a very calm, nurturing, engaging manner
a total gift from God

we have these amazingly loveable and smart and complex and FUN twin boys
who are a total MIRACLE
and the reason we get up everyday
they are our everything
we worry and pray and cry and fret and research to do it right by them
it's harder than anything we've faced thus far in life
the importance of getting it right feels overwhelming

we aren't perfect parents
but thank god we have each other
we aren't alone
we have tools and determination to always try harder
intentional parenting
i am beyond blessed to have a committed husband
who is a great partner
who is completely devoted to his family
so wise beyond his years
he is the best problem solver
offers solutions for me A LOT
i am challenged by him
and aggravated by him
and i know i am loved
i would never want to do this without him
he puts up with me
i am lucky

and our furry kids are such a happy part of our days as a family
feed, water, hug, walk, brush, pet, snuggle, play
they offer us so much unconditional love and attention
coach and mocha are so loved

life is good
through it all we grow and change and adapt and learn
it's all good

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